So, the last time I was here, things were a bit of a seesaw. A couple doors closed and a very special one opened for the first time. Unfortunately, that closed too. These past few weeks have been tremendously difficult for me. I crumbled and wallowed and that kept me hurting. It's so draining. I've been reminding myself to make a conscious effort to remember to choose happiness and kindness. I have to choose to change for the better.